Fear and Faith

I've stated before that I have an incredible level of faith. I have faith in God but where my faith falters is with my relationship with my wife.

I did go last night, and that drive was one of the longest drives I have ever taken. My mind was racing the entire trip, and not many of my thoughts were positive. About three-fourths through the trip, I started to pray again. I prayed for strength and wisdom. I truthfully do not pray to make it easier. As I ask God, I need the strength and wisdom to continue down this path of re-discovery. This path is not to be easy. For me to learn from my mistakes, it cannot be easy.

While God gave me that strength and wisdom, my wife gave me the love and encouragement that I need as well. And this is where I need to have faith still. She just wanted to talk. Something that we have not done for a long time, and I worked on listening. My wife believes that she did something wrong. She doesn't truely believe she did the right thing, even though I have told her that she has. She has the strength to keep going, and to keep me going. She really is the person that I wanted to be with for the rest of my life.

I need to continue to have faith in God and my wife. It's not that I am not in control of my life, it is that I need to start listening to the people around me that truely care.